I have some good news—I found a full time job! For months before we left, I worried about finding a way to provide for us while Gabe is in school. I kept having visions of Gabe and me in Bonnie and Clydeish outfits being forced to rob banks to survive…okay, I admit I sometimes enjoy imagining us as infamous partners in crime. But the point is that as a chronic worrier, our lack of income was certainly enough for me to spend nights awake thinking about.
So now, I worry no longer—at least not about finding a job. I was surprised and glad to have interviewed and been offered a job within two days’ time at Justifacts Credential Verification. I work there as a verification specialist, a glorified way of saying that I do background checks on people applying for jobs, loans, apartments, etc. Finally, I interviewed for a job that was truly impressed by my English and writing background. Even though I spend the majority of the day at my desk making calls and writing reports, it keeps my mind stimulated for the most part.
I know I should feel lucky that I have a good job—and really, I do feel lucky. But still, after my trainer pointed out my cubicle and showed me how to work my headset, I freaked out a little. What if I get stuck there in that confined space? What if my hands and my mind become frozen in this time and place and years go by without my realizing it?
But then again, there are some positive things about having the typical 8-5 job. For the first time since probably the sixth grade I feel like I have time. Time to read what I want, write what I want, and just be.
So during the times in my cubicle when I find myself grasping for those lines of Wordsworth and characters from O’Connor that are slowly drifting from my immediate memory, I remind myself that maybe I need this time. I need this time to rediscover the words and fall in love with them again.
